Scars to your beautiful |Levi x Chubby!Reader AU|

(WARNING: Talk about starving )


|| She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits,
She craves attention, she praises an image,
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor ||


“Be ready in two hours brat, we are going out” Levi nonchalantly commented as he was flipping through channels, not giving you a glance. You looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

“You couldn’t have told me that with more time?” you whined as you put down the magazine. “It takes way much more than two hours for me to even look halfway decent” you mumbled, not noticing that Levi had heard you.

You walked into your room and headed straight to the closet to search for something that would help hide your stomach. You have always been overweight, but you had believed that you had grown to accept it. That was until you began working at a modeling agency.

You yourself were not a model, you were the person being the camera, not in front. Seeing all those skinny and beautiful models made your confidence deflate. You finally came across a red dress that had a built in corset which squished your fat to look at least more appealing. You quickly changed into it, purposefully not glancing at the mirror.

You then made your way to the sink and grabbed your straightener, you never really did like your natural hair, it wasn’t wavy or curly or even straight, it was just there. You quickly straightedge your hair as fast as you possibly could. You then reached for your makeup bag but a pale hand stopped you.

“Tsk, times up… you look beautiful without your makeup anyways” Levi murmured as he wrapped his arms around your belly and rested his chin on your shoulder, his breath tickling your neck instantly which drawled out a giggle from you and a smirk from Levi. He then slipped his hand from around you to your hand.

“Let’s go gorgeous”

“Pft”

“What, brat?”

“Nothing” you shook your head and furrowed your eyebrows, how can he call you gorgeous? There are many more gorgeous women out there. Levi wanted to argue further but he looked down at the time and saw he didn’t have any to waste, he would finish this conversation layer. He flashed you a rare small smile and pecked your lips.

|| Oh she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain, and cut her woes away ||

As the car pulled up you glanced up at the name and gasped. “Levi! Do we even have enough money to go out and eat here?” you questioned as you put your hand on his shoulder, giving him a concerned look.

“You deserve the best” he said as he kissed your hand “and besides I felt like I needed to spoil you a bit brat, all you have been doing is working and holing yourself in your office” he half tutted and half worried.

“Not much different than what you do” you shot back. He sequined at you and flicked your forehead. “Quit sassing me (y/n)” he smirked. You giggled and nodded “Fine , but let’s go I’m hungry” you said officially changing the conversation.

Levi chuckled and got out, opening the door for you as well, you pouted up at him when he opened the door. “I hate that you put the child lock thing Levi” he smirked down at you. “Well that’s the only way you’ll let me open the door for you” you huffed and grabbed his hand.

“I have a reservation for two.. Under (Y/n) Ackerman” Levi spoke up when we reached the hostess at the restaurant, then you blushed. “Levi, that’s not my last name” you huffed out as you gave him a look. He then huffed, “Nothing your last name my ass” he said as he wrapped his hand around your waist and held you closer.

The hostess showed you and Levi to a table in a more secluded area. You thanked her and she nodded with a smile. Instead of sitting across from you, Levi pulled his chair so he could sit right next to you, you raised an eyebrow at his antics which he just shrugged off.

The both of you were looking at the menu when a gorgeous, model looking, red head walked up to you. “You just skipped the salads dear” she said as she flipped the page to the salads. Levi  scowled and gave her a look that could kill.

“I’d say thank you for your help but we didn’t ask for it, you can leave” he growled out and was about to stand up when you set your hand on his hand with a smile that almost broke his heart, it was that smile you had when you tried to stop years from rolling down your cheeks.

“It’s fine, I wasn’t even that hungry anyways, a salad wouldn’t hurt thank you” you thanked the girl who just humphed and walked away.

||  She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, "Covergirls eat nothing."
She says, "Beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything."
"What's a little bit of hunger?"
"I could go a little while longer, " she fades away ||

“That’s fucking bullshit and you know it (y/n) you all but busted through the window of the car to go inside and eat, if you don’t chose something you want I’ll chose it for you” Levi sternly scolded you, you looked down in shame at your hand which were intertwined on your lap.

Levi grabbed you hand and brought it up to his lips and placed a gentle kiss on  it. “I love you just the way you (y/n) I don’t care for the comments others give, but if it bothers you I will gladly shove my foot up their asses” he said the last part a bit louder getting shocked and horrified looks from everyone else.

You giggled and hid your face behind your hair. “Okay…. I had my eye on that Chicken Alfredo” you mumbled out shyly. Levi smiled and nodded his head in approval.

“Good choice, brat”

The both of you ordered and in a couple of minutes your food was ready. As they set the huge plate in front of you your stomach growled lowly, truth be told you have been eating less and less without you noticing much.

You eagerly stabbed the pasta with the fork and as you brought it up your lips you unconsciously flinched back, your appetite disappearing as quickly as it came. To not look to suspicious you took a few bites.

“Phew, I’m full” commented and Levi raised an eyebrow at you.

“You barley ate anything, brat” he retorted.

“I had eaten that sandwich earlier remember?”

“… The sandwich from three days ago?”

“….”

“…. (Y/n)-“

“Can we go home?”

“Not until you answer my next few questions”

“I want to go home now”

“(y/n)”

You grabbed a couple twenties from your purse and set them down on the table and hurriedly made your way out of the restaurant, you didn’t want Levi to see the tears that were now rolling down your cheeks.

Levi cursed under his breath, as soon as you left a couple of men came out of the kitchen with violins and another man with a tray with two bottles of champagne, one had a ring at the bottom.

Levi thanked the men under his breath and grabbed the ring from the glass and cleaned it off on one of the towels before quickly walking off to find you. Headed his way to the car and momentarily panicked when you were nowhere to be seen.

You were currently under a tree that had the initials ‘L + (Y/N)’ carved on it with a heart surrounding it. You were curled up while looking at your surroundings through teary eyes.

You were doing so well with your little ‘diet’ until Levi caught you, that’s the only way you could see yourself losing weight. I mean it didn’t hurt too much to be starving all of the time, in fact, it made you feel like everyone else, like the models you photograph. They would always comment on how they were starving.


|| She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface
Ah oh, ah ah oh,
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer
The light that shines within ||

“There you are” Levi said between breaths. He sat down next to you, not saying anything about you crying, he knew you hated when he saw you crying so he decided to pretend he didn’t even notice it.

“Why do you even stay with me?”

“What do you mean why?”

“Because look at me Levi!” you screamed through your tears, you hated… no despised looking so weak in front of Levi but you had finally snapped, you couldn’t suffer in silence anymore.

“I am looking at you, brat. That’s why I can not for the love of all that is holy, figure out why it is that you don’t love yourself as much as I love you.” Levi said as he pulled you to his lap and made you lay your head on his chest.

“Do you hear that? That is the sound of my heart beating for you and only you. I fucking love you so much I sometimes don’t even know what to do with all this love… your making me sound like a fucking love sick puppy too… fuck”

You giggled at that last part and you heard his heart speed up a bit which caused for you to blush lightly. You sniffles and wiped away your years with your hand and snuggled closer to Levi, who signed and rested his head on the tree.

“I’m sorry for being so stupid sometimes Levi’

“You better be sorry, look at all the shit you made me go though, now my pants are going to be dirty”

Smack.

“Ouch, you’re s fucking abusive, that’s called husband abuse you know?”

“Levi why do you keep talking like you’re my husband you turd, you’re just my boyfriend” you huffed out as you looked up at him.

“Just boyfriend my ass… you’d know why if you didn’t run away from me at the restaurant brat”

Your eyes widened as he pulled out a ring from his shirt pocket.

“Will you (full name)-“

“Yes!” you squealed as you tightened your grip around him.

“Oi! At least let me finish my proposal I stayed up all fucking night preparing this shit”

“Shut up and kiss me.. brat”

“Don’t steady line neithe-“ he was interrupted by you kissing him.

|| There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful ||


// A/N: Hello there! This is the longest one I've ever written so I'm kind of exited, this idea was in my head for quite a while now but I have barley been okay enough to write it now (with all of the election shit going on) I apologize for any grammar and word mistakes..... I hope you enjoy